Apparently my religion is Lunaism

My weekend was good and bad. I spent it with Vlad and while the majority of the time was very nice and fun, the end LETS SEE sucked. I just really see no solution to the cat problem. I'm not willing to give Luna up. He is not willing to get allergy shots. There is no compromise. He says life isn't a fairytale "sometimes we have to do things we don't want to do." Well, um, I could say the same thing to him. Luna is something I'd have to give up forever (speaking for all future cat-pets); getting allergy shots takes 5 years max. I understand that its not convenient. But having pets is a lifestyle for me; its not choosing who I love more. Its a part of who I am. I LOVE ANIMALS!!!! When I see them my heart JUMPS and I have to touch touch touch touch. I can't live without that. I just can't.

I'm not ready to make some terminal decision. I can't face the heartbreak. But I know I have to be true to myself as much as it hurts. Right now I just keep hoping a solution will present itself.


I want a garden by the ocean tide
Because I lose my way searching for stage lights