year after year what we do is undone

Well I'm a little bit miserable right now. Actually quite miserable. I haven't felt this sad in a very long time. I try so hard to be so hard and strong, but I don't know if I can handle this. I don't want to handle this again. I'm just hurting a lot. And it makes me feel stupid and selfish b/c I know my problems are so worthless. But I just feel like there's this weight upon me, pushing me down and I can't exhale.

It doesn't help that I'm in 2 classes June term that move at the speed of light. Its even harder b/c I don't give a crap a/b the subjects.

I am glad I was able to get some work this summer... more than I had in the spring surprisingly, so at least I'm making money. I am also glad I got the last 1 bedroom apartment in the same complex and will be moving mid-August. I can't wait to live alone again! I mean I've had good roommates, but its just so nice to have a place to yourself.

I wish I could have just stayed in LONDON. I loved it so much; I wasn't disappointed or let down at all! I could definitely live there. I probably couldn't drive there :-/ but I could live! Sigh... I have pictures from my trip, but not on this computer yet for some reason.

In July I'm planning to volunteer with Shelby County Humane Society, which is something I've wanted to do for a while now but haven't had time b/c of classes. When my June classes are done I am going to help the animals!

Well tonight I had a nice time with hly and kk. We went to Sekisui and it was pretty good. Then Eddie came and we all watched Count of Monte Cristo. James Caviezel mmmmmmmhhhhello :)


Thats all. Bisous!