i wish i was a cat.

This picture looks how I feel. I would've liked to curl up and sleep ALL DAY today... and don't get me wrong, I did a little bit of that today since my brass class got canceled. But there's never enough time for being cat-like.

I just feel BLAH today!! And every little thing is making me feel worse! I was so happy to see that class was canceled, but I was still overwhelmed with schoolwork today! I feel so behind, and even tho I know it'll all be fine, still... UGH I'm just ready to be done. I have two papers to write in my near future and a 'youtube' presentation for this Thursday, the latter of which I don't even know what to present about yet! Plus in my online class I have to answer all these questions from these chapters in a book that I don't even own yet b/c I am poor!! Hopefully its traveling on its way here as I write since I ordered it last week. Then I missed our opera DVD-watching session b/c I thought it was Thursday only, not Tuesday AND Thursday... but I feel better a/b it b/c Dr. Kris is super nice. At least tomorrow I will have a lot of time to work on all this STUFF, and hopefully I'll feel better on the inside.

And I still don't know why, but every time I see another stupid status update or newsfeed or whatever the hell a/b one more person GETTING MARRIED or GETTING ENGAGED it just makes me SICK!!! UGH yanno I just don't want to hear a/b it b/c for some strange reason it upsets me. Whateverrrr.

So I've been watching reruns of Top Model off and on again all day and it just makes me want to have a career as a singer even more than I already do. Despite the fact that modeling, esp modeling on this tv show, is nothing like being a singer... just watching ppl pursue their dreams makes me want to pursue mine. I'm finishing this degree b/c we all seem to think that this concept of having a 'backup plan' is a smart move, but ugh my heart is NOT in all this reading a/b music ed advocacy and new teaching methods and blah blah. Maybe one day, idk.

Anyway I guess that's all... I can't really not smile when I see a picture like this...


BYE.

Happy Birthday, Olivia!

Well, its been an okay weekend. Friday night I went with Mom and Christy for margaritas (yum), then to Sips N Strokes for my 3rd painting. Here is a picture of my lovely three snowmen; its my favorite painting I've done yet! I love my snowmen! The one on the right is goofy.

I felt reeeeally sick again late Friday night, however; my sinuses hurt soooo bad :( Thankfully I slept like a ROCK.

I slept late Saturday morning, got ready, and drove to Montgomery. I was very happy to see V. He took me to eat at Jim 'n Nick's & then to have a few drinks & play pool at some place called Byrd's Bar. I had a good time, and I wish I could have stayed longer.

A few days ago I checked to see when Magic Flute rehearsals would be, and I saw that I had one today at 815, so I was pretty excited about it. But then I looked again tonight before I was about to leave, & I saw that it had been changed to 6:30!!! So obviously I'd missed it, which upsets me very much!!!! I never miss rehearsals!! I love them! Ugh.

In other news, for the past few days whenever I've picked up Luna she has meowed like I'm hurting her, so I was starting to get really concerned. It was her back right leg that seemed to hurt, so I tried to check it out and see if I could find anything wrong. I couldn't really see anything, and she just kept meowing like OUCH so I gave up and decided to make her a vet appt soon. But today when I got home, she seems much better, didn't cry when I held her, and when I looked at her leg I could see a scab there. So I'm thinking maybe Leia scratched her pretty badly last time we were at my parents' house :( I'm just glad its nothing worse; I was getting really worried.

Well I guess thats all. Here is another picture of my snowmen!



And a very happy 22nd birthday to Livvy-Bot!

BYE!

"Always the... singer? Never the bride..."

Karen's wedding is tomorrow and I can't even express how happy I am for her! I think its such an amazing thing when you actually find the one person you want to be with forever. I'm honored to be a part of the ceremony. But at the same time, watching all these old friends get married always makes me feel so sad. This is no exception; maybe even moreso b/c Karen was my very best friend for a very long time. Its just so mind-boggling and I can't even put words to how I'm feeling. I guess I just always wish that I was at that place, ready to take that step. B/c I do want that someday! I know its not my time, and don't get me wrong- I am perfectly ok with that; I would not want to get married at the wrong time with the wrong person and end up in an unhappy situation. But watching my friends get married brings on quite a melancholy for me. Plus with the whole Vlad-Luna situation... ugh.

This whole week I've been very down and shiftless. I keep wishing I could get away and do something fun. Too bad UAB doesn't get a fall break. I'm glad its the weekend; after the wedding tomorrow I will spend a lot of time with my family and precious pets who I LOVE. Then Sunday we'll be going to my uncle's lake house for some yummy bbq :) And my mom is making Halloween cupcakes!

Anyway today I was playing with Luna and put the toy on her back which makes her CRAZIE so I took some pix. And thats all for now. Good night.


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Got it!