At least I have some prada sunglasses on the way...

Why do some break-ups feel like divorces? Not only are you suddenly cut off from the one person you've spent 24-7 with for the past however many years, but you somehow also end up dividing the assets... & what I got were his t-shirts while he got our mutual friends. So I don't ever get invited to the mutual friend group outings. What's even stupider is that we are friends now, so why am I still not included? Maybe it just says something about these friends... hmm. Or do we need prenups for potential break-ups?

extra extraaaa

Its been a long time since we heard all about it...

So here's an update:

The semester is going well. Its been relatively light compared with other semesters, which is good, but I still feel burnt out just b/c I am so ready to be finished with school. I want to be back completely in the "real world." Then maybe it'd be easier to pay for all the clothes I somehow always end up buying...

In early March I performed Iris in Semele by Handel with UAB Opera. I really enjoyed my role, even though the rehearsal process was long and often boring for me (I had to wait around a lot), and I had a lot of fun with my friends. I loved that my role allowed me to branch out more as an actress. And all of my closest friends came to see the show, which means a lot to me especially seeing as none of them are into opera.

I also finished ECY 600 around the same time- it was a 2-month weekend class, which was kind of painful, but I'm glad I did it that way cuz it ended so much sooner. I'm also taking a music ed class for which I'll be teaching two 3rd grade classes at Greystone on the 26th of this month... hope they like the lesson I have planned :-/

In frivolous news, ANTM started back in March!! I am rooting for Raina or Jessica to win. Also I've been faithfully watching for information about SATC2 coming out May 28!! So excited. Speaking of which, Erin, my old roommate, is moving back to B'ham sometime in May! YAYAYAYAYAY!!! Lets see, what else?... oh, I'm going to the beach the 2nd week of May (right after my b'day!) with friends from school. I AM SO EXCITED TO GET AWAY. I haven't been to the beach in a year so I can't wait!

Also I've been writing a lot of songs lately. Idk how it happened, but I've gotten much more prolific over the past few months. It shocks me to think I've written 12 songs. So I decided to start recording everything. I shared the songs with my dad and he loves my stuff (he has to, right?), so he really wants to get them copyrighted so I can record them in a real studio. I think this would be so cool, but I don't flatter myself that my music would ever become well-known, so I don't want him to waste money. Even so, he says price is not an object, so who knows?-- might happen in the future.

So my mom decided to go to the beach this weekend, which means that I had to come home yesterday to help my dad with Chloe, etc. I had to haul ass (along with Luna, who hates traveling) to run to Publix for a prescription, then get to the vet to pick Chloe up from Doggy Daycare, and make it to work on time. So wouldn't it be the perfect time to meet the cutest guy I've seen in months?? Yeah, he was at the Publix, and if I hadn't been in such a hurry I would have dillydallied long enough to strike up a conversation that didn't consist of "hi" and many smiles (and smizes, if you will). Sigh. Anyway I'll be here at 35242 until Sunday night.

Today Hly talked me into going to Taziki's for the first time ever. I've never been there cuz I'm not a huge fan of Greek food (does feta cheese REALLY need to go on top of EVERYTHING??), and I always thought it was pretty much the same as Zoe's Kitchen, which I don't care for... but it was really good! FRIDAY SPECIAL, ANYONE? Also I took Chloe with me just for fun and she was such a good girl!! Anyway, I had a fun rest of the day with my dad, and Chris came over later to hang out so it was a good day.

And I guess that's all! Good night!


(look at that silly girl!)


(my beautiful baby)

long time no see

So its been quite a while since I made a new blog. Here are some things that have been going on since October:

Finally went out with Mr. VW, but he turned out to be a self-absorbed ass so we only went out twice.

Had Thanksgiving dinner at my aunt's house.

Finished my 3rd semester of grad school with great grades!

Started recording a lot of my songs and writing several new ones. As of now, I have 9 total! Hard to believe...

Had Christmas dinner at my parents with grans.

Enjoyed having lots of time off from school and work!!

Started off the new spring semester with a request from Dr. Kris to take the role of Iris in the opera Semele by Handel. I said I would and I'm so glad to be involved in another show!

Bought my very first pair of Manolo Blahniks. Black leather Mary Janes. LOVES.

Discovered $5 Bang Bang Shrimp at Bonefish Grill. Its the perfect combination of texture and flavor...

Went Sipping n Stroking with my cousins.

Went to the Cat Show at the BJCC- LOVED IT.

With the help of my best bud, rearranged my bedroom and now it is much sweeter.

Found out Luna had TAPEWORMS- grosssss, but got her some meds asap and now they're gone. We're pretty sure she caught them from Chloe when we first got her.

Still obsessed with watching SATC on repeat.

Fit in and bought a SIZE 2 jeans at GAP 2 days ago- best day ever.

And really thats about it... nothing too eventful.

Yesterday I had a great Semele rehearsal- I really like my role. Its not a huge part (2 arias), but its a really fun and kind of unique character unlike any I've ever played. I really enjoy doing something different for a change.

Today my piano student cried b/c I told her to review the e minor scale... I had no idea what the tears were for & she wouldn't say so I had to slowly but surely figure it out. I think she felt like if she had to review it that she had done it badly or something. I had to explain that in piano and music in general you have to practice something a lot of times to keep getting better and better... sigh. Luckily afterward, I got to go eat $5 BANG BANG with my bud C. I wanted a pretzel, but decided I was too fat. I not deserve pretzel :(

Tomorrow I get to sleep late! All I have to do it go to work for a few hours. Then I promised my mom I'd come eat dinner with the fam and watch Vampire Diaries. Ever since Twilight people have been obsessed with the vampire books, shows, etc... so when I saw the preview for this show I thought it looked ridiculous. But my mom made me watch it when I was over there one night and it wasn't so bad. It reminded me of Dark Shadows from the 60s, which my mom & I used to watch on dvd faithfully. I hear they are making a new Dark Shadows movie with Johnny Depp playing Barnabas. Speaking of movies, SATC2 May 28!!!!

Ok the end.

Validation

So I have 2 friends who recently broke up with guys they've been involved with for a long time. Two completely different situations. Both of my friends are good-looking, intelligent, well-rounded people, and yet because of guys they've both wound up feeling like they've somehow received the short end of the stick. And I'm no different. When I broke up with V, I was devastated and could not understand for the longest time why he couldn't love me enough to make a sacrifice? I knew I'd done the right thing for myself in the long run, and I was even proud for finding the ability to make such a hard choice, but I still ended up feeling like I was the one who lost out, I was the one with something missing, I was the victim. After a break-up, we always want to hear that we were right and that the other person is wrong wrong wrong. For a while, we enjoy bashing them as much as we want while our friends listen and agree with us. Then you allow yourself to realize: I know I don't really think those things; are we just insecure? I can't help but ask myself, why do we feel the need to validate our lives by our relationships?

In order for us to feel ok with losing a significant other, we love to have another one lined up ready to go. Is it rebound, validation, or both? I met Mr. VW only a few weeks after my break-up, and the whole 10 minute scene was somehow able to lift me out of my break-up funk and caused me to feel good about myself for about a week. Until he never called. Then I started to wonder what I'd done wrong. And in the back of my mind I knew I'd done nothing (how could I?- we only met once, for 10 minutes), but how is it that the smallest things can have huge impact when they actually mean nothing at all? Are they the little pick-me-ups meant to be used and discarded? Do we make the things bigger than they are b/c we want so badly to believe that they are indeed big? Are we that desperate for validation??

What happened to it being okay to be single? When did women suddenly want to get married straight out of college again? My generation is like my grandmother's generation with the unhelpful addition of a lot of dirty rap music and hasty celebrity marriages (followed by hasty celebrity divorces)! Almost all of my girlfriends from childhood have been married for 4+ years now and their lives revolve around following their husbands' jobs! I'm not saying this isn't right for some people. But when did we start to feel inadequate because we aren't like them? Who says thats what we need? Why should we feel lonely or lame if we are home alone on a Saturday night? Why do we need a relationship to make us feel complete?

so i try and say goodbye my friend
i'd like to leave you with something warm
but never have i been a cool, calm sea
i have always been a storm

summertime and the living is easy?

UGH registration strikes again!!! It is always so difficult!!! Grrrrr! At least I've gotten four of the like 6 or 7 classes I need to register finally. And I have to take this Music History placement test in early August, and I don't want to study!!! YUK!

In other news, I am once again single for those very few ppl who read this and don't already know. I'm actually taking it much better than I thought I would- I was very sad for a few weeks (which involved a grieving process of crying, sleeping, drinking), but I am basically back to normal now.

Also I am moving to a new one bedroom apartment on the 17th, and I'm excited about living alone again (w/ Luna of course), but the expenses are going to make me crazy. Why does everything have to cost so much? But once I'm alone again I will save a lot on power since I won't have the A/C turned to like 65 all the time like SOME ppl do.... & I don't do laundry every day of my life like some ppl do also... I like my roommate a lot, and I'll probably miss having someone around, but it can also be frustrating at times.

Yesterday I found out that I'm going to get to go next weekend to Annapolis to see Paul McCartney in concert! My uncle who lives there works for Pepsi, and the company was able to give him 4 free BOX SEAT tickets so not only is it awesome that I get to see the concert, but we will also be treated VERY NICE :) VIP bitches. And UT is gonna take us out for a boat ride on the bay the next day. I love Annapolis- it is one of my favorite cities I've ever visited, and I'm excited to get to go back!

Well thats all. I don't think I wrote anything about my amazing trip in London and Paris, but here are 2 pix:

Hampton Court Palace


Eiffel Tower

Bye!!

year after year what we do is undone

Well I'm a little bit miserable right now. Actually quite miserable. I haven't felt this sad in a very long time. I try so hard to be so hard and strong, but I don't know if I can handle this. I don't want to handle this again. I'm just hurting a lot. And it makes me feel stupid and selfish b/c I know my problems are so worthless. But I just feel like there's this weight upon me, pushing me down and I can't exhale.

It doesn't help that I'm in 2 classes June term that move at the speed of light. Its even harder b/c I don't give a crap a/b the subjects.

I am glad I was able to get some work this summer... more than I had in the spring surprisingly, so at least I'm making money. I am also glad I got the last 1 bedroom apartment in the same complex and will be moving mid-August. I can't wait to live alone again! I mean I've had good roommates, but its just so nice to have a place to yourself.

I wish I could have just stayed in LONDON. I loved it so much; I wasn't disappointed or let down at all! I could definitely live there. I probably couldn't drive there :-/ but I could live! Sigh... I have pictures from my trip, but not on this computer yet for some reason.

In July I'm planning to volunteer with Shelby County Humane Society, which is something I've wanted to do for a while now but haven't had time b/c of classes. When my June classes are done I am going to help the animals!

Well tonight I had a nice time with hly and kk. We went to Sekisui and it was pretty good. Then Eddie came and we all watched Count of Monte Cristo. James Caviezel mmmmmmmhhhhello :)


Thats all. Bisous!

i wish i was a cat.

This picture looks how I feel. I would've liked to curl up and sleep ALL DAY today... and don't get me wrong, I did a little bit of that today since my brass class got canceled. But there's never enough time for being cat-like.

I just feel BLAH today!! And every little thing is making me feel worse! I was so happy to see that class was canceled, but I was still overwhelmed with schoolwork today! I feel so behind, and even tho I know it'll all be fine, still... UGH I'm just ready to be done. I have two papers to write in my near future and a 'youtube' presentation for this Thursday, the latter of which I don't even know what to present about yet! Plus in my online class I have to answer all these questions from these chapters in a book that I don't even own yet b/c I am poor!! Hopefully its traveling on its way here as I write since I ordered it last week. Then I missed our opera DVD-watching session b/c I thought it was Thursday only, not Tuesday AND Thursday... but I feel better a/b it b/c Dr. Kris is super nice. At least tomorrow I will have a lot of time to work on all this STUFF, and hopefully I'll feel better on the inside.

And I still don't know why, but every time I see another stupid status update or newsfeed or whatever the hell a/b one more person GETTING MARRIED or GETTING ENGAGED it just makes me SICK!!! UGH yanno I just don't want to hear a/b it b/c for some strange reason it upsets me. Whateverrrr.

So I've been watching reruns of Top Model off and on again all day and it just makes me want to have a career as a singer even more than I already do. Despite the fact that modeling, esp modeling on this tv show, is nothing like being a singer... just watching ppl pursue their dreams makes me want to pursue mine. I'm finishing this degree b/c we all seem to think that this concept of having a 'backup plan' is a smart move, but ugh my heart is NOT in all this reading a/b music ed advocacy and new teaching methods and blah blah. Maybe one day, idk.

Anyway I guess that's all... I can't really not smile when I see a picture like this...


BYE.

sicky

So I am sick again... and I'm just trying to stay really chill this week while I don't have much to do b/c of spring break so I can be well at least by Monday. We have the longest rehearsals this weekend tho, and I hope I am well enough by then to sing. Right now nothing pretty is coming out of my mouth. Yeah. No fever or anything tho so thats good... it just feels like my sickies picked right back up where they left off from last time. GO AWAY I SAY.

Anyway today I met my mom at 10 b/c she had 2 coupons at DSW and was feeling generous! I got a new pair of casual black shoes b/c my current ones are falling apart and I'm thinking they won't be lasting much longer. YAY. Then we went to ULTA where the in the greatest surprise ever I got a free gift worth $65 for buying an ULTA brand product. Sweeeeet. Then we went to B&N and ate lunch at SUMO. I love Japan.

I came back home and slept for HOURS. At 7ish Boo & KK came over to watch Top Model, Idol, etc... Nigel was particularly harsh this episode and he's usually such a sweetie! I am rooting for Allison and maybe London... but right now like more than half of them pretty much suck. And in Idol news... I'm still questioning why I watch it... its so corny. But poor Jorge. And poor LUNA- she had an upset stomach tonight, and well... we smelled the consequences of that :-/

Tomorrow I'm working for Dawn from 330-430, so thats like $20 extra this month. Then I might peruse Gap b/c I have a 30% coupon for the 12th-15th & 5% of my money goes to my favorite non-profit organization!

Well thats all for now... CYA.

thar she blows

This week has been kind of rough... Here are the highlights, err.. lowlights?

1. Tuesday I got in "trouble" and I was very upset b/c I didn't mean to be wrong :(
2. I busted by BUTTTTT Wed night to finish a program notes project for Thursday night, and was up until past 1 doing it.
3. I finish it, look at the syllabus, and realize they aren't due until March 19
4. Yeah. Not only that, but we don't even have class this week.
5. Today my one and only aria SUCKED.

Luckily tho, there is a silver lining. Theory is canceled for two days this week, which has thankfully afforded me some extra sleep time. Much needed sleep. And tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! And then I can just chill; I'm headed home to spend some time with the fam & b/c I have to be up kind of early Saturday to judge at the Music Plus voice & piano "Festival," which is over by my house. Then Vlad will be coming to see me!!! YAY! Maybe we can play with our buddies.

Well I'm going to get in my PJs and watch AI. CYA.

Valentine's Day musings...

Actually I'm not really here to must about Valentine's Day, although it is coming upon us this Saturday. I'm mostly here b/c I can't fall asleep!!! I have lain there in the bed for an hour or so just thinking thinking thinking.

Last week in my voice lesson, I was warming up with Dr. Mathes when she just stops and asks me, "Why are you doing music ed?" And for some reason, her asking that just struck a nerve and I started to cry. She went on to say that "with your voice" I should be performing. And while its a very nice compliment, it just hurt because of course I would much rather be performing. I never wanted to be a teacher, and I still definitely don't have any dreams of working in a school teaching music. I love music, obviously, & I really do love to help kids perhaps find an appreciation for it and even possibly help them learn and grow as a musician themselves. But what I love WAY more than that is singing and being on stage. And I know I've set it aside and tried not to think about it because my logical, realistic self is telling me to get the teaching degree so I'll be able to make some kind of money. Its just frustrating to not really know what to do. So these are things I think about.

Then Saturday night I get scolded b/c I didn't feel good and decided not to come out and play. Which made me feel worse b/c I actually don't like to let people down even when I don't feel truly wanted in the first place. My mom asked me if real friends would make me feel bad for not wanting to come out; the answer is no, but then I get defensive b/c I know my friends are good. So I think about these things.

Then today I get this lovely invitation via fb for "X, Y, & Z Sing Songs of Love" (or something to that effect) to celebrate their upcoming nuptials and to raise $$ for their honeymoon. It would be just CORNY if it was any regular person. But this corny affianced individual is an ex-boyfriend of mine. Soooo, corny + YUK! Deep down, I am actually very happy for him & I hope their union works out, but no I most certainly do not want to attend their happy singsong fundraiser! VOMMMMMMMM!!!!! As two friends said, I'm sure he sent the invite to all his fb 'friends' but still. Come on!! And it was just all up there on my screen reminding me that I am no where near about to get married. And its weird that that fact would even bother me b/c I'm not even ready to get married! Its just the fact that I'm not... I don't know. It was just... not something I cared to see or think about.

I am excited about Magic Flute although all teachers keep telling me I am still too nice! Its hard to be so completely different than myself...& I don't even consider myself particularly nice. But it will be fine, & I am practicing a lot.

Speaking of practicing, thankfully today was my last day playing the damn trumpet. I SUCKED AT TRUMPET! And I practiced soooo much this weekend & this morning. NO MORE!!!

I am singing a song in Russian by Rachmaninoff this semester. I chose it for several reasons, mostly b/c its gorgeous & 2nd since I am dating Vlad, who is Russian, I thought it would especially neat to learn a song in that language.

Speaking of my Russian, I am very excited for V-day this weekend. After pretty much boycotting the holiday for any year I didn't have a boyfriend, its nice to have a reason to 'celebrate' it. We're going to Bonefish Grill for dinner, & I am pretty pumped b/c its DUHLISHUS.

Well I guess I'll try to sleep again now. I hope it works!!! Night.

Getting back into the swing of things...

So. My "New Year's Resolution" is to start going to the gym. I got a YMCA membership with all these great and wonderful intentions to go to aerobics and yoga classes, and whatever else looks interesting. Unfortunately, now that my school and work schedule is set, I am available at none of those class times!!! So pretty much all I can do is go run or lift weights whenever I have a few hours. I would much rather go to a class where they tell me what to do for a specific amount of time. They supposedly change the class schedule every few weeks, so hopefully I'll be able to go to a few classes soon.

School is fine thus far. Nothing too stressful yet. I was irked this morning b/c I got up early for my 9am class only to find when I got there that it was canceled. It just sucks mostly b/c it is SO COLD outside right now!!! What is up, weather?

I am very excited about The Magic Flute. I never really thought I'd be a part of such a famous opera. At Samford all we ever did were scenes and one-act operas that no one had ever heard of... which is fine. But I love my role and I can't wait to get more into it.

In other news, today we got our new microwave that we asked for like... 4 months ago. We were enthralled. A microwave with buttons?? No way!

Erin is moving this weekend, and I am sad :( She was the best roommate ever!!, but I am really happy she's getting to go on tour performing and doing what she loves to do.

Well I guess I don't have much to say. Time to watch the Cosby Show and do some more reading/outlining for school :-/


BYE.

Christmas, New Year's, et al

Time flies when you're having fun, eh? Idk if it was the most productive for me, but I think I figure some things out and am at least on a good path right now. Plus I had some fun times with lovely people. Can't ask for more than this.

So Christmas was relatively uneventful this year. My grans came over on Xmas Eve & we had dinner and played some Wii (they LOVE Wii). Christmas Day we went to church, opened a few prezzies, ate too much delicious food, then went to my aunt's house to visit with my dad's side of the family. It was fun except this antibiotic I was taking should NOT be taken with booze... it made me BURN UP ON FIRE HEART RACING. Not a good thing to do. I ended up staying at my parents' house for almost a whole week; they like me :) & Luna and Leia only got in one fight the whole time (no injuries, thankfully).

I spent a few days with Vlad; we gave each other presents. He got me like all relaxation gifts... an electric massage pillow, a bath pillow, bubble bath, and... long island iced tea mix. All great for relaxing, huh? He is also giving me $50 to gamble with at VICTORYLAND hahaa! Presents to help with drinking, gambling, and being lazy... whats that, like, gluttony, greed, & sloth?... how sinful am I going to be? Anyway. I got him a SEXY gray pea coat, too much booze, & a ROLL TIDE CRIMSON ELEPHANTS blanket. I think we did good this year.

For New Year's we never could figure out where to go or what to do, so I finally decided we should get some people, have dinner somewhere, and go to a bar for midnight. Simpler said than done. We made reservations for 6 people at SUMO (b/c they said they took reservations... didn't explain that it was more like call ahead) for 8pm and it was PACKED when we got there. We waited a/b an hour before getting seated. I mean its no big deal, but by the time we got seated, we were pretty much starving!!! But it was DUHLISHUS so thats good.

Then we went back to my apt to relax a little before going out. Unfortunately when we got to the bar, Jessica couldn't get in so our group disbanded. Also the bar was PACKED LIKE SARDINES, you could barely walk through. So we mostly sat outside under these heaters, and since I was still taking the antibiotic I didn't drink. Which turned out to be a good thing, since on the way home I was side-swiped on the interstate. But thats a story for later. So anyway we rang in the new year WITHOUT champagne since we couldn't get close enough to the bar to actually get any. I decided we should head back home, pick up our own champagne & chill at my house for the rest of the night. Here are some New Year's pix:



So like I said on the way home my car gets hit on the driver's side, & the assailant tries to SPEED AWAY. Then all my crazy car passengers told me I needed to chase them to get pictures and whatever. We were able to get them to stop at a gas station off Oxmoor, and it turned out to be a girl I knew from middle school. Awkward. She was begging us not to call the cops b/c she didn't want to get a DUI & lose her job, etc, which I felt bad for, but she didn't have her insurance card & without a police report, I would've had no proof she had hit me. So we called the police... and she LEFT the scene. Which we all thought was pretty foolish, but I guess now she won't get the DUI. And thats fine; I mean, I don't want anything bad to happen to her; all I care about is getting my car fixed. But we got to chat with cops for a while and then finally headed home.

The next few days were boring; yesterday I had to bring my computer to my dad b/c it had decided to stop working (it wouldn't turn on at all). Luckily it just needed a new power supply, and my dad had like 5 of them just laying around downstairs. So now I have my computer again. Later that night was our bowl game, in which we um BLEW. I have nothing else to say about that. I didn't even finish watching it b/c Stephen called to ask if I wanted to see a movie. We saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which I was going to wait til dvd to see, but I LOVED it. It was really amazing. Then KK had been calling me, thinking I was ignoring him, but I would simply never do that! So I went over to his house to play with him, hly, & griffin. This is what happened:

And thats all I'm going to say. PUXnLUV for 2009. BYE!

I'm thankful for Thanksgiving

Its safe to say I haven't felt very good this entire semester. Is it possible to have a sinus infection for 4+ months? I guess if it continues to go untreated... or treated with treatments that AREN'T WORKING, perhaps. I can't remember one day when I've felt energized; everyday has been so sluggish. My mom wanted me to come into the dr today to get SHOTS, but instead I'm going to start ANOTHER antibiotic and hope that this one will fix me up. If not, I'll be subjected to the "very painful" (I actually quote my mom the nurse) 2 shots needed to be injected into my ASS. So, new antibiotic, pls work. Kthx. Anyway needless to say I don't feel good. I took some Mucinex D, & while it has definitely cleared up the sinuses for the time being, it has also made me verrrrry looooopy. When I stand up, my legs feel like they're made of jello. I hope its the red kind. Yum.

The weekend was nice. I spent it with V, who took me to eat at nice restaurant & even got me 2 delicious drinks which had me feeling verrrry goood Saturday night. I also got my oil changed Saturday afternoon. I never remember car things like I ought to, so it felt like an accomplishment.

So top model is over for this cycle & McKey won... which isn't what I wanted. Poor Analeigh. I rooted for Sam (after A got eliminated) mostly b/c McKey is so snore.

Last night I watched "The Prince & Me," which I've seen before & thought was pretty lame. But I couldn't stop watching it last night b/c this guy kept looking so HOTT.

That isn't the best picture, but mmmmmh. Maybe it was the accent that stole my heart.

Well its time for my 2nd nap. I can barely keep my head up. Bye!

Play. Laugh. Grow.

I can't sleep. Quizzes :-/

Quiz: Are You High Maintenance?

Laid-Back
You definitely care about how you present yourself, but probably not enough to let your appearance dictate what you do, where you go, and who you spend time with. Sure, you take pride in your appearance, but you know that some things are more important than looks. That's a great attitude — it looks like you've achieved a very healthy balance between narcissism and neglect.

http://web.tickle.com/relationships/quizzes/show/56

Quiz: The Identity Test

Extraversion Medium

Your medium score in the Extraversion category defines your social identity. You are probably comfortable in either a crowd or by yourself, and spending time alone or with company is equally enjoyable. When among others, you tend to stand in the foreground, although you may not always wish to take the position of a leader. Instead, you seem to prefer moving between the role of leader and follower, as the situation requires. You probably keep a moderately active social life; you're generally on the lookout for excitement, but certainly don't require it. You tend to keep a fairly positive emotional outlook, and people can usually count on your for some good cheer.

http://web.tickle.com/relationships/quizzes/show/147?page=1

This weekend sucks. Nothing to do. Vlad's going to Ttown. Tmrw I'm going shopping with bb (2 of my fav things), but I can't buy anything :(

Anyway I love Luna :) The end.

ROLL TIDE ROLLLLLL 10-0!!!!

Its been a fine weekend. Friday all my classes went by pretty quickly. I was really nervous to have our playing quiz in woodwinds Friday morning b/c I JUST started making sounds on the flute the previous Wednesday. Honestly, I made valiant attempts at it everyday since the day I acquired the flute, all with zero success. Somehow Boo (who is apparently a woodwinds genius!?) was able to teach me how to get the correct Mouth Position... it was so exciting to hear that first beautiful tone! But, luckily, she postponed our quiz until tomorrow b/c no one was really making the best sounds after not having real class on Monday & Wednesday since she was out of town. I was so relieved.

Anyway then I had a voice lesson & voice performance class... which was funny b/c for some reason I was the only one singing. So everyone had to show up just for me... I felt kind of bad about that. But at least it was short and sweet! Friday night I took my buds to ArtBuzz for their first painting experience! We made the Bubble Tree, and I think everyone had a good time :)

Saturday we all watched the Alabama game together and wow was it stressful. Erin & I ate our feelings with pizza, Hly just yelled a lot, & Kevin and Vlad I thought were more silent than usual. But THANK GOD we fought on to victory in overtime. PHEW. We were very happy. Then V left & the rest of us went to Habanero's for a celebratory margarita. Our waiter's name was Hector.

Today I went to lunch at my grans' house, & my mom's cousin Cindy & her husband & daughter were there too. I had a lot of fun with their daughter, Isla, who for some reason really took to me! I enjoyed her very much! Then I came home & later had my first Magic Flute rehearsal, which went well.

I watched Baby Mama tonight b/c Charter gave me a free on-demand movie for being a new member. I liked it! And thats pretty much it. Time to start a new week... sigh.

Apparently my religion is Lunaism

My weekend was good and bad. I spent it with Vlad and while the majority of the time was very nice and fun, the end LETS SEE sucked. I just really see no solution to the cat problem. I'm not willing to give Luna up. He is not willing to get allergy shots. There is no compromise. He says life isn't a fairytale "sometimes we have to do things we don't want to do." Well, um, I could say the same thing to him. Luna is something I'd have to give up forever (speaking for all future cat-pets); getting allergy shots takes 5 years max. I understand that its not convenient. But having pets is a lifestyle for me; its not choosing who I love more. Its a part of who I am. I LOVE ANIMALS!!!! When I see them my heart JUMPS and I have to touch touch touch touch. I can't live without that. I just can't.

I'm not ready to make some terminal decision. I can't face the heartbreak. But I know I have to be true to myself as much as it hurts. Right now I just keep hoping a solution will present itself.


I want a garden by the ocean tide
Because I lose my way searching for stage lights

Election in 1 Day

I just took this quiz in honor of the upcoming election...










Your true political self:
You are a...

Social Moderate
(50% permissive)

and an...

Economic Liberal
(36% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Centrist:
You exhibit a very well-developed sense of Right and Wrong and believe in economic fairness.

Merry Halloween/Last Day of October

October has gone by FAST! I have not even noticed it SWOOSHING on by! And its even one of my favorite months! I like when the weather starts to change; I mean, I prefer warm weather, but after a while I am ready to wear long sleeves and scarves and jackets! And for some reason October/early Fall always gives me a good feeling... idk. But I digress. Happy Halloween. Check out those RAR pumpkins. Wow.

Lets see... since last time I wrote, I took my woodwinds midterm & I got a B+. I am happy with that! I'm also now starting to "play" the flute... as of right now, I'm not getting any sounds out :( which is really frustrating. I'm starting to think I should have picked a different instrument! But hopefully I'll figure it out when I'm practicing this weekend. I'm also now playing viola instead of violin in strings class, which I actually like a lot better. I love the way it sounds.

Last Friday I sang one of the Queen of the Night arias during performance class in front of EVERYONE. My heart was beating SO FAST; I was rawther nervous. But it was fine. I was just glad when it was over b/c my flu shot was making me feel pretty icky.

Over the weekend, Vlad came to B'ham on Saturday & we went to the Alabama Theatre to see the silent film of Phantom of the Opera with the awesome organ playing in the background. I'd seen it before in like 7th grade when we studied the book for lit class, but it wasn't much like I remembered it. I was afraid Vlad might not like it, since its nothing at all like a "horror" movie you would see these days, so you have to realize its going to be different. But we both really enjoyed it and had fun! They made it really theatrical at the beginning and end with these guys in scary masks carrying candles & rolling out a coffin that the organist steps out of. It was pretty cool. Check it out:


Here we are, obviously, VERY scared:

In other news, on Monday for choral methods I had to go rehearse 20 minutes with a school choir AND video record it, so I went with Whitney to her husband's choir at Hewitt-Trussville High School. He wasn't there that day, so W and I ran the rehearsal and it was quite a new experience. I left feeling like it was kind of fun, but also knowing there was a lot I should have done differently plus just a lot more I could have done. But it was my first time, and thankfully it wasn't too scary.

In top model news, cya Sheena. I was hoping it would be Elina, but oh well. I hope Sam or Annaleigh win. Yo!

Anyway, today is Halloween and I have zero plans! No costume, nothing! And I don't even feel sad a/b it! Does this mean I am getting old??! Yikes! Well I guess thats all. Have a fun Halloween!

Happy Birthday, Olivia!

Well, its been an okay weekend. Friday night I went with Mom and Christy for margaritas (yum), then to Sips N Strokes for my 3rd painting. Here is a picture of my lovely three snowmen; its my favorite painting I've done yet! I love my snowmen! The one on the right is goofy.

I felt reeeeally sick again late Friday night, however; my sinuses hurt soooo bad :( Thankfully I slept like a ROCK.

I slept late Saturday morning, got ready, and drove to Montgomery. I was very happy to see V. He took me to eat at Jim 'n Nick's & then to have a few drinks & play pool at some place called Byrd's Bar. I had a good time, and I wish I could have stayed longer.

A few days ago I checked to see when Magic Flute rehearsals would be, and I saw that I had one today at 815, so I was pretty excited about it. But then I looked again tonight before I was about to leave, & I saw that it had been changed to 6:30!!! So obviously I'd missed it, which upsets me very much!!!! I never miss rehearsals!! I love them! Ugh.

In other news, for the past few days whenever I've picked up Luna she has meowed like I'm hurting her, so I was starting to get really concerned. It was her back right leg that seemed to hurt, so I tried to check it out and see if I could find anything wrong. I couldn't really see anything, and she just kept meowing like OUCH so I gave up and decided to make her a vet appt soon. But today when I got home, she seems much better, didn't cry when I held her, and when I looked at her leg I could see a scab there. So I'm thinking maybe Leia scratched her pretty badly last time we were at my parents' house :( I'm just glad its nothing worse; I was getting really worried.

Well I guess thats all. Here is another picture of my snowmen!



And a very happy 22nd birthday to Livvy-Bot!

BYE!